Turning Tables

Hi Guys! 

It’s been a while since my last post. I’ve been spending my time being dedicated to college and these last 6 months before I graduate. 

I’ve also been thinking a lot. About life and the various experiences that shape us. Sometimes it takes a really shitty experience to help us grow and mature in leaps and bounds. 

Sometimes it takes things falling apart for better things to fall into place. 

Sometimes it takes the most uncomfortable path to lead your life to the most beautiful place. 

You will never see the purpose of the storm until you see the growth it produced.

You will never see the purpose of someone leaving until you see what’s best for your life. 

You will never understand why you went through what you went through until you see the strength, the power and the resilience that it built inside of you. 

I just wanna tell you, your current situation is not your final destination. Just because something is over, doesn’t mean your life is over. The pain that you are going through will soon turn into the pain that you conquered through. 

The fear you are experiencing will soon turn into the fear that you overcame. 

This chapter is not your story. This moment is not your identity. 

This pain is not your life. 

You gotta believe that the tables in your life will turn. 

The pain will become power. The weakness will become strength. And the confusion will become peace. 

Better things are coming for your life.

Everyday is a new beginning. 

It’s time for you to start treating it that way. 

And with those thoughts, I leave you. 

I wish you love, light and happiness.

Until next time. Peace ✌🏼

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The aftermath

Hey guys!

I know it’s been a while since I updated my blog. So much has been going on, I barely had the time. 

So, let me give you guys a quick run down of the chain of events that happened since being back from the student exchange programme.

1) I got back home and went straight into re-tests. I had to do these because the tests were written while I was away. I felt so under pressure for these because it meant having to catch up on three months worth of missed lectures. 

It was kinda crazy to just read the textbook and write a test on content that I had no real idea about. 

Nevertheless, what I did, was soldier on and guess what? I managed to pull distinctions out the bag! 

Sometimes in the most stressful and busy times, you realize your true potential. You realize what you’re really made out of.

I mean, I was just hoping to pass given the circumstances (being away and missing lectures), but I superseded my expectations and goals. 

2) Exams were next! 

Aaaaahhh! Just as I finished writing the retests, whatdoyaknow- I was thrown into exams! Geez. No time to slack. I literally jumped out of the pot and in to the frying pan. It was so intense. The exams really took its toll on me. The expectations of these higher NQF level modules are seriously no joke! Well, I survived and lived to tell the tale. I am waiting for my results and will keep you guys updated with those.

3) I got a new car 😀

So while I was away, my little brother had an accident with my car and it was beyond repair. He’s okay though, don’t worry. In the wake of this, I got a new car and my parents made such a good choice. It’s a cute little Toyota Etios. ❤️🚗

4) I found out that my pronunciation of the words “Strength” & “Length” are correct, after years of being told I pronounce it wrong, hehe. 

I pronounce the “gth” at the end. Most people say “lenth” and “strenth”. I say “lenGTH” and “strenGTH”.  I went onto YouTube and searched for the correct academic pronunciation and I was right 🥇.

5) Assignments 🙈🙈🙈

So, literally a day after exams, I had to start working on my assignments! The stress never ends! I had missed the submission dates due to being away and the management team at college took mercy on my poor soul and allowed me the grace of handing my assignments in after exams. That really helped, but still, it was a crazy month. 

I put myself under pressure because I work best that way. I have high expectations and goals for myself during this academic year. I’m trying to attain my goals and still have a balanced life. I am a sister, a daughter, a friend, a granddaughter, a babysitter, a student, an SRC president, a human. I can only really do as much as I can without spreading myself too thin. That being said, I try my utmost best to fulfill all my roles with sincerity. 

I continue to learn about myself through times of adversity and hardships. I’ve had some great moments being back home and I’ve had some nasty experiences too. I won’t elaborate on the latter, it doesn’t deserve a shred of my energy. But the former, the great moments, they have made me grateful for being back!

Things I missed, that I now get to enjoy:

• Seeing my family ❤️

• Getting spoilt by my grandmother and getting all my favorite foods cooked for me

• Being able to walk around in “winter” with a short sleeve shirt on and NO jersey.

• Having my own wheels. Getting around whenever and wherever I want and just having that freedom and independence of having a car. I really missed this one when I was away. 

• Being able to see my Significant other 🌙🌷

• Now that I’m on holiday, I can make time to see my friends! 

• SEEING MY DOGGO! 

There’s actually quite a lot more to be grateful for but I think if I really start listing stuff, I will only probably finish this post tomorrow. I live in constant gratitude and appreciation for all that I’ve been blessed with. 

I just wanted to update you guys on the happenings so far. I’m only really getting a chance to settle in and relax, now. Because things have been hectic until now. But I will write again, and soon. 
Thanks for being part of this journey with me! 

I hope you guys are living your best life!

I’m leaving you with some pictures of my sisters graduation. It was such a proud moment for our family. 

Stronger.

Wow! I have less than 2 weeks left on what has been the greatest adventure of my life.

Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine myself succeeding at one of the toughest challenges of my life.

Norway. You have been amazing and beautiful, but you have also been tough and challenging.

When I take a step back and go through the course of events that unfolded to lead to this… It blows my mind.

I am just a girl from humble beginnings who had a goal. a vision. a target.

I sat across the table from my parents four years ago, telling them to start saving up because I want to be the exchange student and represent my college and country in my final year. They had every ounce of faith in me. They believed in me. They fueled my fire.

My parents trusted that I would work towards my dream and had my back the entire time.

I have put countless hours of hard work, sleepless nights, determination and motivation to push me ahead of the rest, to be able to achieve my goal. I don’t think I have ever wanted something so badly, in my life.

…And hard work pays off. I got what I worked hard for. I was afforded the opportunity of a lifetime.

I know that from here, there can only be bigger and better things for me to conquer in my life.

This trip to Norway has been intense. It was 3 months away from anything familiar to me, completely drenched in a new culture, new people and new expectations.

This trip has shown me my true strength, which I sometimes doubt I actually have.

It has shown my perseverance and drive. My determination and ambition. I dug deep within myself and found a fighter. I fought through the cold, the language barriers, the high expectations from college. I fought through the moments of weakness when I missed my family and loved ones, the moments of sadness when I felt low and fought through not knowing how to cook and clean, to become self-sufficient.

I think I did well! I made it to the last few days and I’m still here, still surviving. Still doing my thing.

I often put myself in pressurizing situations, and I am very hard on myself, but that’s only because I know that if I don’t push myself…I will never know how great I can truly be.

I will be returning to South Africa having acquired new skill sets, being more sure of myself and having made my parents proud.

All I’ve ever wanted was to make my parents proud. They both started off from nothing and became such amazing, accomplished people. They have given me everything and so much more. All I want is to show them, they have raised me in their image.  I’ve learnt so much from both my mom and my dad, and all that I am is a tribute to them.

It’s really quite overwhelming when you have achieved a goal that you have been chasing for 3 long years. The amount of inner strength I found in myself has been phenomenal. The journey on which I have embarked would be scary, even to an adultier adult than I am. But I looked it straight in the face and tackled it head on.

I am proud of myself. I overcome a lot of challenges, took a lot of risks. I made many friends, explored, went on adventures, acquired knowledge, submerged myself in another culture. I did all the things I wanted to do and even conquered a few things I wasn’t even expecting.

The world better start getting ready for me… Once I get my degree, I am going to be a force to be reckoned with.

What I have learnt is; to respect myself more, trust my instinct more, be more forgiving of myself and to have more confidence in my capabilities. I think I did pretty well considering the odds.

I owe myself this much. A chance. A chance to be great.

I find that I stand stronger than ever before and I am so eager to end this trip on a high note, then go back home and knock the ball out of the park with my final year of college.

I have never believed in myself more than I do right now. If you want something bad enough, you will do everything in your power to have it. I think I can look forward to more growth and stability in the years to come…but this opportunity has certainly set the pace for the rest of my life.

Thank you Mom and Dad. I love you guys so much and I hope I have made you proud. I am coming home to you a little wiser, a little stronger and a little smarter.

If you have read all the way to this point. I want to say this to you: Don’t settle for any less than you deserve. You can do anything you put your mind to. Just go for it with passion and drive. You owe yourself everything you have been dreaming off, make it happen!

I leave you with a visual representation of me as a baby to my most current picture. Its been a looooong, hard 26 year journey. But I’m all the better for it.

From here…

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…To here.

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Stockholm- Sweden 🇸🇪 A tale of two days â¤

I’m no jet setter. Well not yet anyway. But this world is so big and I want to know everything and soak up as much as I can. Allowing positivity in and keeping negativity at bay. 

The world. 🌎 Wow.


My parents (God bless their pure hearts) gave me an amazing 26th Birthday present. They gave me a trip to Stockholm. That’s the capital of Sweden 🇸🇪 just incase you didn’t know. 

Talk about best parents in the world. Truly believe in miracles when I think about the family I’m blessed with. It’s a privilege and an honor to be your daughter, Mom & Dad. An absolute, sincere and pure honor. 

My roommates (the coolest friends I’ve made during my stay in Norway 🇳🇴😎) decided to make the trip a girls weekend away and join me on this trip. I was ever so grateful to have these amazing souls with me. They are so well-traveled and knowledgeable. I learn from them daily. 

So we booked our flights. And we booked accommodation. It was an airbnb. My first time using one of those. 

Friday (24/03/17) 

We left Moholt and took an airport transfer bus which took 45 minutes to get to the airport. We got to the airport and for some weird reason, I kept thinking we were doing an internal flight. But it wasn’t. It was international. Once I wrapped my head around that, it was A for Away! We went through the security control, on our way to the boarding gate, we found a grand piano. One of us knew how to play the piano. And really well too! So Julia took the stage and played a beautiful song which attracted people to the piano area to listen to her and video her and even give her cheers and applause after! Stunning. Beautiful. Sweet. 

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We took the 6pm flight and arrived on Stockholm just around 7pm. We then had to take a bus to the city center and try to find our way to our apartment. It wasn’t cold. Spring had definitely sprung. Jennekke looked at a tree with tiny little green buds and she told us she wants to see the leaves before we leave. Julia and I were skeptical as to whether the leaves would bloom in the 3 days we were there. By the time we had reached our apartment (10 minute walk from the city center), we were all actually really tired and decided to retire for the night to make an early start the next morning. Guess what? The leaves did bloom. We saw them on our way out on Sunday.

Saturday (25/03/17)

We woke up, got ready, had breakfast and set out on a little adventure. We walked to the city center and the sun was shining. It was around 10 to 12 degrees. The highest I’ve felt it so far, here in Scandinavia. We had our sunglasses on and walked through the most beautiful parts of the city. Cobble stone roads, tiny shops selling anything and everything, street venders selling candy apples and churros and quaint little cafès which looked just too divine. There were tourists everywhere. The architecture and design of the buildings were so stunning. 


I doubt my pictures do justice to the splendor that is Stockholm, but these pictures are for YOU to see what I was seeing on the amazing little walk. 

We were trekking to the Royal Palace. On the way, we found an amazing canal/body of water which had the best view, so obviously I got some pictures there. Here’s me, looking all touristic and shit ❤✌🏼


Oh before I go on. My roommate Debora, from Italy 🇮🇹, she had also booked to come with us however due to unforeseen circumstances, she had to go to Italy urgently and couldn’t come on the Trip.  We missed her so much. 

So we get to the Royal Palace and WOW, what a Palace it was. There was a room dedicated to the bridal gowns worn by the queens and princesses. There was a throne which was gifted to the queen. We had little electronic devices provided to us by the museum and basically you just point it at the information sign beside the item of interest and of gives you a brief history on the item. Pretty hi-tech stuff. Interactive and fun. Just the things I love about the museum. ❤


The bridal room and throne room ❤


Other parts of the palace looked like this: 

Royal marching band.​​

We then ventured through these cute little cobble stone streets and walked past thousands of other tourists. Souvenir shops, clothing shops, candy shops, cafès, people walking their dogs, people sporting all types of amazing fashion and even a Hare Krsna group singing in the little alleys. Listening to the Krsna songs made my heart so so warm. Everything was beautiful. 

Here, see for yourself : 



We stumbled upon a body of water and it was just glorious. We also hiked up to this viewpoint to get a better look at the city. So beautiful! 

Clear blue skies. Sun shining. Perfect. 

Next stop was a cosy, quaint little cafè, I had some tea (#TeaAddict). 

As we walked outside the cafè, I heard familiar music and was immediately drawn to it. Music that made my heart beam and my face light up. Music from my culture, my religion, my life, being played on the streets on Stockholm. 

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We saw some cool pirates along the way and came across a group of people doing yoga at the edge of the water. It was so transcending to see the sun shining on the ripples of water and the shadows of the people doing yoga. 

I don’t know if you know this about me, but I’m a little bit obsessed with candy apples. So, I got myself a chocolate covered one and had a blast eating it in the sun! Felt kinda cute to be a kid again. 


Here’s more stunning buildings. 


Next stop : Limericks Pub. Nachos were shared and beers were consumed. Nice relaxing stop from the fast pace of the day. 


After the exhausting day, we headed “home” or back to the apartment. The girls and I were amazed at our sense of direction. We acquainted ourselves with the city so well that we didn’t even need a map to find our way back. 

We got “home” and got comfy. We sunk into the couch and curled up to watch 📺 TV. It’s been a while since any of us sat on a couch or watched TV for the matter. So we  relaxed and chilled out before going to bed. 

Sunday (26/03/17)

The day of Museums 😍😍😍🙏🏼

We went to the Stockholm Historika museum which depicted how the Swedish lived through the centuries. I love how interactive the museums are and you’re encouraged to touch everything and interact with all the items on display. They also appeal to all your senses which is pretty cool! 





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Then we went to a dance museum 💃🏻 

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The multimedia screen featured videos of different dance forms and I was so pleased to see Bollywood dancing featuring too. 


We stopped at another cosy cafè for some chai lattes before it was time for us to head to the city terminal. Pretty cool to see the gay pride flag 🏳️‍🌈  represented too! 


We got out luggage, got to city terminal, hopped on a bus and 45 minutes later, we were saying goodbye to Stockholm.


Our flight took us to Oslo International Airport. Oslo is the capital city of Norway 🇳🇴. At Oslo our flight was delayed by 2 & a half hours to Trondheim and we only reached Trondheim at 11:55pm 😐😫. I was SO exhausted. At Oslo airport Julia & Jennekke played quick cards on the floor whilst I buried myself under a sea of jackets and tried to get some sleep.

With the bus transfer back to Moholt, we only reached home at 1:30am on the morning of the 27th. I had to wake up at 5:30am for school the same morning and boy was I tired! But it was so so worth it. 

It was a brilliant trip, I had great company and got a little glimpse into more scandic life. I will definitely be going back for more. 

Just a little thought on people for your Tuesday motivation. Let go of the toxic people and embrace the good people in your life. If someone loves you, they will never hurt you. Remember that. 
As always, I wish you peace, love and light. 

Thanks for reading!